Sunday, January 28, 2007

Judgement Day 3 - Almost there

Oh my god, we just finished our weekly session, and I am still shaking and my knees are weak. You know the setup by now, no need to explain it again. I had almost 200 seconds available, a little more than 3 minutes. Thank you all for voting for me, I really appreciate that!

I was so excited. After many days without any stimulation the vibrator felt like heaven. It gave me the most delicious sensations. My moans were filling the room and I didn't even care that my neighbors might here me. I felt totally separated from the world. It was only me and my pussy at that moment.

My arousal went up quickly, I approached this orgasm even faster than expected. I was almost there, could feel the orgasm approaching. Then the doorbell was ringing. It was like in a bad movie. Of course we didn't even consider opening the door, but my building orgasm was intercepted by that unexpected disturbance.

I was not allowed to see the clock that was counting down my 200 seconds, but I guessed there must have been at least one minute left. Quickly I was back into the feeling and my orgasm draw nearer and nearer. I pushed my clit harder on the vibrator. Yes, this time it would work! I could almost feel the orgasmic spasms approaching, when suddenly the vibrator was turned off! I tried to rub my clit on the turned off vibrator, but my master and lover removed it too fast. It felt like dying. I tried to argue with him, I got really angry. I shouted at him and said words I shouldn't repeat here. I didn't care if there was still someone at our front door and could here me.

He didn't give in. I have to wait another week. He also told me, that my bad behavior will have consequences. He will take a closer look at my overall behavior this week and decide what punishment is appropriate. Guess I will have to be extra sweet to him, I cannot risk losing my chance to orgasm next weekend.

22 comments:

Anonymous said...

When do these sessions happen? And what time zone are you in? I thought you lived in the Pacific Time Zone (due to time change between sending my posts and time marked on my posts) and had these sessions occur Saturday evening. From around 7-12 pm Pacific Time, you had 5-7 minutes.

SirDraco7 said...

I enjoy seeing your posts. and your frustration and need are probally enjoyable for your Master as well because if you are not attentive to him you won't cum.

However an earlier post says your losing sleep and it's affecting your life.
So as such I'll vote to grant your orgasm.
It is fun and all. but when it starts affecting you in negative ways it starts being a bad thing and not as much fun.

Just use your orgasm as a benchmark too. 3 weeks? 4? whatever it was.. make your next orgasm be at least one week longer of a week. then another. Sooner or later you'll get used to the frustration and it won't be so bad anymore. ;) hehehe

Kirsten said...

I am located in Europe, there is no defined time for the session. This time we did it at Sunday morning, The poll said 202 more votes for yes than for no. The time under the posts does not match our local time, don't know why this is so.

Sirdraco, do you really think one can get used to this kind of denial? Have you ever tried to go without an orgasm for that long? I cannot believe the body can get used to this.

Anonymous said...

There are women on a site who have gone for months. Nuns can go for a long time (but they are not stimulated either). Practicioners of Tantra stimulate themselves but hold off on release to spread orgasmic feelings throughout their body.

Anonymous said...

I've gone months without an orgasm, personally. It's really not that hard, IMO.

Anonymous said...

anonymous,
Are you stimulated?
Did you go months your first time?

Anonymous said...

I recognise you. You live in Sweden, dont you? :D

SirDraco7 said...

::Chuckles:: I have not experienced it. but yes I do believe that your body can get used to orgasm denial.

Maybe not completely used to it.
But if you do 4 weeks for several times in a row and then do 5 weeks it won't be as hard. you won't be as frustrated and you'll endure it better.
you're mind and body will get used to it and it won't be as hard. with similar teasing that is. teasing can change things loi. ;)

Good luck with your orgasm chance. :) you deserve it.

Anonymous said...

I have been stimulated and I have been not. It's pretty easy either way. Also, my first time probably wasn't that long, but that's more a willpower issue. I don't have a second person here; it's all solo. And, truthfully, I don't do it for denial purposes. I refrain from orgasms because they take up time that I could use for other things, carry the risk of being discovered, are messy and require cleanup, and are overall unnecessary.

Anonymous said...

anonymous, Your first couple of points are true. As for your claim that they are unnecessary, I don't believe that is true. Sexual arousal may cause vasocongestion, myotonia, and alteration of brain chemistry. If these things cause discomfort and distraction, then release is probably a good idea.

Anonymous said...

I'm actually male. Maybe that changes things somewhat, I dunno.

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure you would have that anger if this is something you wanted or enjoyed. Were you alowed to discuss your feelings, or did he just decide to punish you. If he is making you do this against your will and is unwilling to talk about your feelings or provide any other "aftercare", then your situation may be closer to abuse than BDSM.

Kirsten said...

Of course I don't want this. I never expected this to go that far. But it was my idea in the beginning, and I promised my master and lover to follow along, no matter what happens. I committed myself to the rules, because I was not aware what they could mean to me. And I am pretty sure my master and lover didn't expect such an outcome either.

Next time I will think about such a decision more carefully, but this time it is too late to turn back. Fortunately I expect to orgasm on Sunday anyway.

Anonymous said...

you're feeling anxious now, because you aren't getting the release that you're used to, but it will pass. Concentrate on pleasing your Master, his pleasure should give you pleasure. You should be happy to give up your release for his.

Anonymous said...

Even if you promised to do this, that doesn't mean he has to be callus towards you. Does he even tell you he loves you and does he try to comfort you, or does he just mock your situation and refuse to acknowledge that you have feelings? The line between BDSM and abuse is a difficult line to see sometimes. If a relationship is feeling like abuse it might indeed be even if it is being dressed up as "BDSM". I don't know much about your relationship except what you post here, but you might want to take a look at this checklist: http://www.christiansandbdsm.com/abusechecklist.html

Anonymous said...

"You should be happy to give up your release for his." Maybe that would make some people happy, but it is difficult to be happy with a coerced situation.

Anonymous said...

I can't tell if your "master and lover" is cruel or just confused. If he's cruel, I hope he hasn't made it difficult for you to escape. If he's confused, he should realize that it doesn't make him weak if he stops a "game" when it starts harming someone.

Kirsten said...

At the moment I am really feeling I have given my release up for his pleasure, because his orgasms at least doubled since we started this. I am constantly horny and giving him pleasure is the only thing I could do to get some satisfaction.

I read the Christians site, and I had the vote yes a few times. But I love my partner very much and I will not risk losing him because of some checklist.

He is definitely not confused, be he can be a very cruel person. He doesn't threaten me and I can walk out of this whenever I like - although this means I will lose him. If I want out of this and stay with him, I face a very severe punishment, which makes it hard for me to escape this.

Anonymous said...

If the punishment is severe and unbearable, what keeps you with him? I believe there is a chance that he is threatening you with something if you leave, but he is forcing you into lying by saying that it's love that keeps you there.

Anonymous said...

Are you willing to tell us how many things you checked? Did you check any red questions?

Anonymous said...

That probably would be clearer if I said "such as making you say".

Kirsten said...

I am sure he will not threaten me if I should decide to leave. I know him too well for that.

If you really care about this checklist, I can tell you how many yes there were, but I will not take any actions against my master and lover because of some checklist in the internet. At the moment your link isn't working, I will try it again later.