tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-891763931562516232024-03-05T15:19:39.946-08:00Vote for my OrgasmKirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-70633267448134260362007-04-13T12:01:00.000-07:002007-04-14T03:48:43.778-07:00The truth about the last weeks (removed)My lawyer told me to remove this entry because it could be a problem for the prosecution of my ex, and I want to see this bastard in jail for all he did to me. This chapter of my life is over anyway. I thank you all for your support. Wish me luck.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-73138511029263939372007-03-10T15:19:00.000-08:002007-04-14T03:44:58.406-07:00It has finally happened!No, not an orgasm, although I would wish so. The rings have been put in place this afternoon and I was expecting to be locked up with the padlock on Monday. To my surprise my master and lover suggested some bondage play for tonight. I was eager to do this, since we hadn't had too much sex since my infection. He tied me down with my legs spread wide apart. My hands were tied to the top of the bed and I was unable to move. <br /><br />He liked every inch of my body, except for the parts where I needed it most. He teased me that way for over an hour. I was begging him for an orgasm all the time but he didn't give in. When he finally paid some attention to my pussy he only flicked his tongue over my clit a few times. He knew why he tied me down. I would have given me this orgasm myself if my hands would have been free. I was sweating like I was running a marathon. And I was as exhausted after the session. He tickled and teased me a little longer and finally brought me to the edge of orgasm. Not only once but 7 times. He made me count each time I hit the edge. I tried to cheat me over the edge but he knows my body too well. He planned to do 10 edges, but I told him that I feel like I will pass out if I don't cum right away. He didn't take the risk of going on but allowed me to calm down a little.<br /><br />Then he showed me his surprise - the padlock he got for me. It was a little larger and heavier than expected, but he polished the edges so that they wouldn't hurt me. After all this stimulation and edging I begged him to finish this and start the chastity thing after an orgasm. I promised him that I would wear it two month if he only let me cum tonight. I was a little frightened when he told me he will consider the two month and put the padlock in place at the same time. He smiled and I realized he was just joking.<br /><br />I heard a clicking sound when the padlock snapped in. It was quite cold on my clit but warmed up quickly. I didn't expect it to pull so hard on the rings, I guess I will get used to it. My master and lover made clear that he will not grant me this orgasm now but that I won't stay locked up for long. He untied me and I tried if the padlock can really prevent masturbation. I was shocked. I never thought it would be so tight. Trying to move it away would only inflict pain on my labia. I am also not sure anymore, if this thing really can be removed that easily without the key. But in case of emergency, my master and lover will keep the key near all the time.<br /><br />What more should I say. I have never been that horny and must think about the pleasure of an orgasm all the time. The padlock pulling on my pussy forcing me to focus on this area of my body constantly doesn't help either. If I would have to wear this longer than I week I would go insane.<br /><br />I have no more energy to proofread what I wrote, I need to find some rest. Good night and read you tomorrow!Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-24359773328256425862007-03-09T07:49:00.000-08:002007-03-09T08:21:03.867-08:00My current situationI have been away quite a while, but not without a reason. I did even consider letting this blog die down. Since I received a lot of mails lately asking if I am ok, I decided to restart writing about my situation.<br /><br />To get those things out of they way, there were 2 reasons I stopped writing:<br /><br />1) I was sharing very intimate experiences with the wide world, something I was not totally happy with. When some people started to accuse me of making those things up, I lost my motivation to share anything more. Once the voting was put on hold, I had no reason to make any more embarrassing details about my sex life public. <br /><br />2) The second and even more severe reason was of a medical nature. I didn't believe the people telling me I was risking an infection, but they were right. Only a few days after the piercings were made I realized that something went terrible wrong. My doctor diagnosed a severe infection and I had to undergo treatment with antibiotics. At first it looked like I would suffer permanent damage and lose some of the piercings, but everything healed better than expected. I spare you the ugly details, but everyone considering a genital piercing should be really careful! This is nothing to be sloppy with!<br /><br />The infection healed completely and finally the whole situation turned out well for me. Did I get my orgasm by now? No, I didn't. During the infection I still was incredible horny, but if you know what an infection in the genital area means, you will understand that I had no business masturbating during that time. So once everything was back to normal, I was asking my master and lover for release, being pretty sure he will allow me my orgasm after everything I went through.<br /><br />I was mistaken. He convinced me that all the effort of getting the piercings would have been in vain, if they never were used for their purpose. I understand his point although my urge to cum gets bigger every day. If someone out there believes that you can get used to an orgasmless life, you are mistaken. It gets worse every day.<br /><br />Currently I am looking forward to get the real piercing rings - the strong and secure ones - tomorrow afternoon. I don't know how long my master and lover plans on keeping me locked up, but he promised that it won't be long. I guess he wants to let me suffer for a few days, and I will have my orgasm finally next week.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com35tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-8838731905074952842007-02-04T13:02:00.000-08:002008-12-09T18:50:54.919-08:00Judgement Day 4 - Getting a chastity piercingI knew I was in trouble when I got caught touching my pussy. After considering my situation I was pretty sure that I will not get my orgasm this weekend as I had hoped for. I was close to tears when I was thinking about my lost orgasm. But it was my own fault and I have to face the consequences.<br /><br />My master and lover didn't speak to me when he arrived today. He ignored me completely until it was time for our weekly session. "You got votes for about 300 seconds of stimulation today. But after your failure this week you will understand our session will be a lot longer." These were his only words before he tied me to the bed. I expected he would follow a suggestion from a comment on this site and will overstimulate me after my orgasm. That would have been ok for me, having this orgasm would make up for any further punishment.<br /><br />I was not that lucky. He didn't fixate the vibrator as usual but used it manually. And he used it like an expert. He brought me to the edge over and over, but I was not able to cum. He always turned the vibrator off when I was about to cum. The session lasted for over 2 hours, my throat is still soar from screaming and moaning.<br /><br />When I was thinking I would go insane he stopped the torment. In a sharp voice he commanded that I will not have this orgasm anytime in the near future. And to make sure that I will not mess it up again as I did last week he suggested a special security measure - a chastity piercing. I wanted to argue with him but he told me there is no need to. If I want to do this, he would be very happy, but if I don't want to, it is ok for him. Making him happy will of course reduce the time to my next orgasm a lot.<br /><br />He showed me some chastity pictures he printed out from the internet. I was not comfortable with this at first. But considering my failure this week I might need the help of such a piercing to prevent further fuck ups. And although I cannot imagine how I should go without an orgasm any longer, this seems to be the best way to do it.<br /><br />My master and lover showed me different types of chastity piercings and we decided to have one with a padlock, like you can see it in this picture, just a little more secure:<br /><br/><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgk6JZv_vYybpuHUf3XKLEAH8wnbsxr4xAViHt3E1aJ95PwHT2zm-eYDayWAJiq-HZxvUx2NiDm7Zd67OTGGZ8mIUQdK6dDvAiMs4xWWhZ0J9M1asa4ThHoB3WUPFmGg0NPBif1eSge5XyQ/s1600-h/piercings.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgk6JZv_vYybpuHUf3XKLEAH8wnbsxr4xAViHt3E1aJ95PwHT2zm-eYDayWAJiq-HZxvUx2NiDm7Zd67OTGGZ8mIUQdK6dDvAiMs4xWWhZ0J9M1asa4ThHoB3WUPFmGg0NPBif1eSge5XyQ/s320/piercings.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5027443139117402690" /></a><br />I was still tied down on the bed while we had this discussion. He asked me if I am sure I want to have such a piercing and I answered him that I want one as soon as possible. He smiled for the first time today and it warmed my heart to see him smile again.<br /><br />He told me that he had a surprise for me that he will show me later. But at first he wants to play a little more. He turned the vibrator back on and started to stimulate me again. With the same skill as before he made sure I reach the edge over and over without being able to climax. I fought against the restraints but I was not able to escape. I wanted to reach down and finish the job but I was not able. He is a bondage expert to.<br /><br />After one more hour he put the vibrator away. He told me he didn't cum for the last few days when he was away and his balls are full and aching. He climbed on me and showed me his hard member. He fucked my mouth eagerly and my skilled tongue brought him to orgasm quickly. He told me not to swallow his cum as usual but to keep it in my mouth and gargle with it. This was quite hard because he really collected a lot of cum and he shot everything in my mouth.<br /><br />After a few minutes the doorbell rang. Again? What's up with all the interruptions lately? I didn't understand what my master and lover was up to, but he went to the door indeed and opened it! I couldn't ask him about it, my mouth was full of his cum. Why didn't he ignore the bell? Did he expect someone?<br /><br />Yes he did. The piercing thing was planed longer than I thought and to my surprised a good friend of ours entered the room. I was so ashamed. Lying there naked, on the brink of orgasm, spread wide in a pool of my own wetness and with the cum of my master and lover in my mouth. This friend has a piercing studio and I instantly know what this means. The same guy pierced my nipples a few month ago and did a very good job. He didn't look surprised, I guess he was told what to expect. He had a large suitcase with him, filled with everything he needed for different types of piercings.<br /><br />I was allowed to swallow and was asked if I am still ok with this. To make a long story short, I agreed to the chastity piercing a second time and got it right away while being tied up. It was much more painful than I had expected it, but after the first ring was pierced, there was no going back. All 10 rings were pierced and my blood mixed up with my juices on the bedsheets. I had the feeling he rubbed over my clit more often than necessary, but the pain was too intense to allow real pleasure for me anyway.<br /><br />The healing process will take about 4 weeks, but the padlock can be used after one week of aftercare. To prevent any cheating, the rings will be very small and the opening mechanism will be sealed with superglue. I will not be able to remove the padlock without the key. And I hope I will get the key as soon as possible!<br /><br />At the moment I am really exhausted and I wonder how I was able to write such a long report about our session. Good night everyone, I hope I am still sure about my decision tomorrow morning.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com25tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-13385334521035882007-02-03T06:40:00.000-08:002007-02-03T07:26:22.332-08:00I fucked it up ...Oh my god, I am so stupid. If anyone told me that I could be so foolish before, I wouldn't have believed it. Now I know what I am capable of.<br /><br />I looked at the voting yesterday evening and it was already at over 300 more positive than negative votes. You can possible imagine how excited I was! After over a month without an orgasm and almost no stimulation I would finally be allowed to cum. And those 5 minutes would have made a good orgasm for sure.<br /><br />I was alone at home and thinking about this orgasm occupied my mind completely. And although my master and lover told me every day that I am not allowed to touch my pussy at all, I couldn't resist it anymore. I wanted to feel at least the incredible wetness between my legs.<br /><br />I reached inside my pants. The first touch felt like an explosion. My clit reacted instantly to the soft touch of my fingers. I just circled around my clit with my index finger and it felt so good. I never thought I could get so wet down there.<br /><br />The good thing is, I could stop myself in time and didn't go any further. It was very hard for me, but I managed to pull my hand out of my pants again before I could do anything even more stupid.<br /><br />I instantly knew that I have to tell my master and lover about this incident. I could only hope his punishment wouldn't be too severe. But it never came to any confession from my side anyway. A few minutes after the incident my mobile phone rang. It was him. I shivered when I picked up the phone. Could he knew what happened?<br /><br />His voice was very angry. He told me that failure will not be tolerated and that I can expect appropriate punishment for what I did. How could he know what happened? Maybe there is a hidden camera in our house, otherwise I would not know how he could have gotten that information so quickly. This would also explain a few other strange things he said during the last weeks.<br /><br />In the end it doesn't matter where he got his information from, the only thing that matters is that I broke the rules and will be punished accordingly. I have no idea what he is up to, but I expect the punishment to be severe. I really hope to get my orgasm anyway, but I doubt it at the moment. How could I fail so close before the final goal? I cannot believe it.<br /><br />He will not be at home before tomorrow, and I didn't talk to him since this last phone call. In the end he mentioned that I should confess my failure here and that I should ask you for appropriate punishment. He has something on his mind already for me, but he is open to any suggestions. And I am not allowed to ask for mildness this time.<br /><br />The voting is on hold until I get further instructions.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-26951442107295800282007-01-28T01:43:00.000-08:002007-01-28T02:08:38.627-08:00Judgement Day 3 - Almost thereOh my god, we just finished our weekly session, and I am still shaking and my knees are weak. You know the setup by now, no need to explain it again. I had almost 200 seconds available, a little more than 3 minutes. Thank you all for voting for me, I really appreciate that!<br /><br />I was so excited. After many days without any stimulation the vibrator felt like heaven. It gave me the most delicious sensations. My moans were filling the room and I didn't even care that my neighbors might here me. I felt totally separated from the world. It was only me and my pussy at that moment.<br /><br />My arousal went up quickly, I approached this orgasm even faster than expected. I was almost there, could feel the orgasm approaching. Then the doorbell was ringing. It was like in a bad movie. Of course we didn't even consider opening the door, but my building orgasm was intercepted by that unexpected disturbance.<br /><br />I was not allowed to see the clock that was counting down my 200 seconds, but I guessed there must have been at least one minute left. Quickly I was back into the feeling and my orgasm draw nearer and nearer. I pushed my clit harder on the vibrator. Yes, this time it would work! I could almost feel the orgasmic spasms approaching, when suddenly the vibrator was turned off! I tried to rub my clit on the turned off vibrator, but my master and lover removed it too fast. It felt like dying. I tried to argue with him, I got really angry. I shouted at him and said words I shouldn't repeat here. I didn't care if there was still someone at our front door and could here me.<br /><br />He didn't give in. I have to wait another week. He also told me, that my bad behavior will have consequences. He will take a closer look at my overall behavior this week and decide what punishment is appropriate. Guess I will have to be extra sweet to him, I cannot risk losing my chance to orgasm next weekend.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-92200864845145765562007-01-24T23:14:00.000-08:002007-01-24T23:22:28.406-08:00Terrible news!It seems like somebody mobilized a whole mob to prevent my orgasm! I got so many negative votes today like I got never before. I was looking forward to at least one minute of stimulation this weekend, but now I am below zero.<br /><br />There is no direct punishment for being under zero, but since an absolute no touching rules has been added, I will get no stimulation as long as the votes are negative. I am not allowed to touch at all, except when I have to on the toilet or in the shower.<br /><br />If this goes on like this for longer I might simple get insane. What do you want from me people, that you let my have this orgasm?? This is torture!Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-87788539711997605412007-01-21T12:35:00.000-08:002007-01-21T10:18:29.510-08:00Judgement Day 2 - At least 25 secondsThings are getting better, I got 25 seconds of stimulation today. Of course I was not able to cum, but at least I felt something approaching. I was hoping that I will be so horny by now, that 25 seconds will be enough. This is very far from the truth. I am constantly dripping wet during the day and even more during the night, but an orgasm without a few minutes of stimulation is still impossible. It was such an terrible feeling when the vibrator was turned of after 25 seconds. I hope I must not experience that again next week.<br /><br />Please vote for me, you can end my torment! I offered to work for my orgasm, unfortunately the only request was a video of my sessions with my master and lover. I am concerned about my privacy and I do not want to do this. The only reason I agreed to the internet voting is my anonymity her.<br /><br />I talked about this video thing with my master and lover after our session, because I was really desperate. We made a deal. We will record every session that is longer than 5 minutes and make it public after we both made sure it cannot disclose our identity. I am fine with this.<br /><br />If you want to see this video, you must vote for a session that is longer than 5 minutes. This means 300 more votes for yes than for no. There is a penalty for this extra rule I have to suffer. From now on I will get no stimulation at all except for the timed weekend sessions. No fucking, no licking, no fingering, nothing. I am only allowed to pleasure my master and lover with my mouth and my hands. My pussy and clit are tabu until I get to cum.Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-81397719684548618692007-01-15T14:06:00.000-08:002007-01-18T09:28:40.956-08:00I will work for my orgasmSpike, a visitor of this blog, suggested I should post a picture of my shaved pussy if I get to cum. I agreed to do this. Therefor he will give me a positive vote next week.<br /><br />After reading this comment, my master and lover had the idea, that I should work for my orgasm. If anyone wants me to perform a certain task for a positive vote, my master and lover will make sure that I really do as I am told. Of course he must agree with the task. I will have to tell you the truth about following your orders. He reads this blog and if I should lie, this will be treated like failing and I will get the unbearable punishment I was talking about before. You can be sure that I will not dare to do so.<br /><br />Please vote for me without any requirements. This idea could get out of hand really quick, so I hope you understand my situation and vote yes!Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-59925688337629308452007-01-14T02:07:00.000-08:002007-01-20T02:56:58.209-08:00Judgement Day 1 - No orgasm in sightOh my god, this is unbelievable! Dear internet, what are you doing to me?!?!!<br /><br />I think I am in real trouble now. Today would have been my first chance of release. I didn't look at the results during the week, because I was afraid it would tell me something like only 3 minutes of stimulation. This would make my juices flowing, but I would not be able to cum. I hoped for at least 10 minutes, but I didn't count on such a good result.<br /><br />When I saw the result I was in horror. It said ... and I am not joking ... 2 seconds! Nearly 100 people voted, that would allow me at least 1,5 minutes of stimulation. 4 more weeks (oh my god, 4 weeks without an orgasm!!) and I am at 6 minutes, this should be enough for me to cum and end this torment. But not all of the participants voted for an orgasm. About 50 percent chose I should be denied! Can you believe this?<br /><br />Considering these numbers, it will take about 150 weeks to reach 5 minutes of stimulation. At this time the touch of a feather will be enough to make me cum I guess. No way I can do this so long. I had an intense discussion with my master, but he didn't give in. If this is what the internet community decides...<br /><br />To make things even worse, he followed the procedure as we had arranged it. He tied me naked to the bed, my legs spread wide open. He took a stopwatch and buzzed my poor abandoned clit for exactly 2 seconds. If I wouldn't have been tied down, I would have slapped the smirk out of his face when he turned the vibrator off again. I need this orgasm so badly. I never was so long without one since I started masturbating. And there is no end in sight.<br /><br />He used this situation to let me suck him good, while I was tied to the bed. His cock was real hard. This game seems to turn him on more than I hoped. He ordered me to gargle with his cum for a few minutes before I was allowed to swallow it. He knows what makes me horny.<br /><br />Now I am sitting here and I have no idea what I should do. I must find a way to get my orgasm. To make things worse, my master and lover placed a penalty on breaking the no touching rule, that is even worse than a life without orgasm. No way I can cheat. I have to get enough votes. So please, vote for me and spread the word. Tell everyone you know to vote, I need this orgasm. Every vote counts!Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89176393156251623.post-43001311495853543432007-01-07T05:42:00.000-08:002007-01-18T09:27:37.006-08:00Please vote for my orgasmIt is a long story how I got myself into this, but I will try to make it short. Everything started when I discovered a website about <a href="http://femaleorgasmdenial.blogspot.com/">female orgasm denial</a>. I had this fantasy about my lover and master controlling my orgasms. When I told him so, he was quite eager to learn more about my wishes. Today I wish I never asked him to, but I wanted him to decide when I am allowed to have an orgasm and when I am not.<br /><br />On Christmas Evening he told me about his cruel plans. He said it is too much of a burden to decide alone, when I am allowed to cum. Back than I had multiple orgasms nearly every night with him. Taking those away from me seemed too cruel to him. Therefor he invented the following game:<br /><br />There is a strict no touching rule. I must not touch my tender parts when I am alone, only when I am together with him. He will make sure I get stimulation, but no orgasmic release. The only chance for me to orgasm is on every Saturday evening. He ties me with my legs spread to the bed and uses my Hitachi Magic Wand vibrator on my clitoris. He only turns it on to the low setting. I need at least 10 minutes to cum that way. Maybe over time when I get more desperate this will decrease.<br /><br />How are you involved in this? The game is easy but cruel. I only get so many seconds of stimulation as I get votes for an orgasm from you. So please be kind and vote for me in the poll on the left side. This will add one second of stimulation for me. You can also leave a comment in my blog and tell my master to let me orgasm. Unfortunately he added another rule. If anyone doesn't want me to orgasm, this will erase one second. I hope nobody is that evil, but you also have a chance to make my suffering worse that way.<br /><br /><b>I am on denial since Christmas 2006.</b> My first chance to cum will be next Sunday, 14th January. At the moment I am dripping wet and in desperate need of an orgasm. I really need to cum next week. I have to blow my master to orgasm daily, which gets me even more horny. <b>Please, please, please, I need to end this game soon.</b>Kirstenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05971552908955411170noreply@blogger.com2